Caliginous Night

There are moments when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, these moments never last long and I seem to cling to them but like everything they fade. They pull me back to the present and I realize that I am exactly where I’m suppose to be in life. I must admit though most of the time I feel as if I’m struggling, constantly living in the past. I must realize though that in life you have to experience what you don’t love as well, in order to know it and know how to go beyond it so that you can spend the time in the place you want to live and how you want to be. That even though right now I seem to be constantly facing the same battles and the next day regrets that I must keep getting up and pushing forward one more time. There must be a purpose for the struggles I am facing and in my moments of clarity I realize why.